grief, secret

i’ve observed my beloved and i get hit at different times by waves of grieving the abortion. in particular, the point where we found ourselves in a place too sensitive to share any of it with anyone. it’s a really bleak, muffled, heavy place to be.

he’s been in one of those recently. i was deep in it from conception to abortion, and with every day after that i feel myself opening back a little more to the outside world.